In my pursuits of peace of mind, I've learned that it is already within me. I just need to reclaim it, to take one step back and change my perspective.
It is presumably one's perspective put weight to the sum of one's agitation.
I have put my heart at rest when I gave up control of what I understand. Since understanding comes from the perception, that comes from senses. And sometimes our senses failed us. Our sight faltered when faced with an optical illusion. We sometimes failed to recognize textures surrounds us.
I have failed to appreciate my self too many times. I self-sabotaged out of fears. I am often self-criticizing and self-blaming instantly.
Out of those ill qualities, self-destructing conducts I associate my self with, I am still hopeful that there are still good, acceptable qualities inside me.
I am endeavouring in healing my self. To at least make peace with the debilitating thoughts and to recall the decent qualities that already built inside me. For now.
