In between Tropic of Cancer and Tropic of Capricorn,
I will build you a home. -01
I was born under north node Cancer, the mother. She who nurtures, cares and protects.
Mother born under the sun sign Cancer.
I would call her by her maiden name sometimes, Engeline, sometimes Mama. Her Cancerian quality can be very obvious. Often, it comes off overly destructive to herself.
I rather have myself talking to her than my father. I craved for her depth and understanding. Even when she barely understand the topic. Even when we hardly understand each other. Yet still, against my will, I feel like I am dragged to follow my father's footsteps. My dear old father. His bluntness his detach quality, a true Sagittarian.
My parents were not compatible by their sun signs. There's not a day goes by that they don't fight against each other. Just like almost ten percent of the population I sometimes can't stand them. But I guess that does not mean I couldn' t love them. There is thin line between love and hate after all. The latter is what pretty obvious in my parents' case. Always they seem like they are about to kill each other.
As a Cancerian, my Mama would seem like she exaggerates things. But the truth is just that everything is important to her. Too important. She'd go crazy and hurt when things went out of her control. I was born under the north node Cancer and supposedly as as a Virgo believed that I was a Libra until recently, pushing fourty to my living years, I am an empath by nature. I can feel her pain when things were to her a mere disappointment. Mama would damage herself again and again with her full loaded emotional baggage. Until things went the way she wanted. And sometimes things just didn't.
My Mama is a very strong woman. She's in critical condition right now but still look so strong and brave. Ironically shes a Cancer living with cancer in her body. She's a true fighter my Engeline. I would do anything if I can be half the person she is now.
-P
