7.8.20

Meeting You #3

You wore a green blouse, grey trousers and your new Onitsuka's. Looking pretty.
I wonder since when you've been wearing liners in your beautiful eyes. I can't stop staring.

Your green blouse suits you. Can we have a picture? I'm dying to ask.

We had our lunch at Honu's. Today you treated me a drink, hot matcha with gingers and lemons. Best matcha I ever tasted.

I still can't stop staring. Your lips, eyes, voice,  gaze, and all the things you are driving me crazy.

We were heading to Poins Square for the RAMs replacement. We were in my car and our hands accidentally brushed. I'm stoked. I wanted so much to just grab your hand. Yet all I did was pulling my hand tightly.

We finally had your RAMs replaced. That's all I think to myself. I won't be able to see you again until March.

While taking you home, I learned you're no longer together with your lover. My heart thumps. I was happy to hear it I feel so bad. You told me how your relationship started. That you just saw that person as a friend since the beginning. That the relationship itself ended long ago. That you are afraid of how one day after you are going to have to meet that person. That perhaps you only have the courage not to be with that person because of this situation. That you feel so bad for being the one who wants the relationship to be ended.

I'm no longer wanting to leave your side.

I always thought that I"m going to have to leave you one day. Sooner or later. That you were after all with someone.

But now I can just stay with you longer can I?

I still wish we had more time. I wanted to tell you more things to comfort you when you told me about it. But we finally reached your house.