Intentions

I saw you yesterday at your place and was hoping you'll invite me in but you didn't. So I made it a quick one, thinking I'll still have my chance to see you on the internet and we did.

You texted me things that made me regret why I didn't ask you instead whether or not I could come in. But then it was already so late. It was almost 9 PM. Your parents probably won't be pleased to have someone visiting you at their place that late. And your text probably just an act of kindness. Because I brought you something nice too.

I met you on the internet. But then too, we were just working.

You repeat asking, was I ever have the intention to have a brief chat and If I did, was the reason I didn't because I was worried that another car would pass the road and that we would cause trouble.

You said I must have been because I was already at your place and you emphasized my effort to get there. And I said, "I should have come in then?", "We could have continued our work at your place, then?" I add. And you told me we could. "Why couldn't we," you said, "when other person did too."

I wonder why too. All I ever want right now is to be around you.

But the truth I didn't think I deserve to spend my time the way I want with you. Just because I give you things, doesn't mean I can burden your mind with all this wanting.

You belong to someone else. I should never take that person's place. Do you know how special you are? I keep wanting you even though I know I shouldn't.

But I hope you will understand someday all my only intentions. All I ever want is to fill your spaces inside with an understanding. I want to build you a space of comfort, place we could find knowledge and wisdom. One you could call home. That space won't be needing time to exist. It is built to protect you. You can lean on that space whenever.