Strangers to Each Other

Keep saying it, and it will appear true.
That we are none.

Never a word.

Because you are to me right now
Who's matters most.

Hangat

Tak ingat pernah merasa sehangat ini.
Hujan yang begitu deras di hampir siang itu,
Entah mengapa malah menggiring ke masa lampau yang teduh.
Ketika fragmen-fragmen masa kecil hadir namun tak begitu jelas.

Aku ingin menjagamu.
Akan kuhapus hilir sampai ke hulumu.
Agar mungkin, perjalanan waktu kita, bisa sedikit lebih panjang.

Aggressiveness

Don't be too aggressive.
Because it's embarrassing.

Don't be overly controlling.
It's just another way of showing people that you're actually afraid.

Let go of your past. Let it out.

Semoga Bisa Tidur

Malam ini kita hapus semua yang pernah mengusik tidur.

Semoga besok bisa pulang. Tanpa berat hati.

Sampaikan salam pada dia.
Mungkin terima kasih.
Untuk hari-hari baik yang kau pinjamkan.

Seperti mimpi-mimpi pada lekuk waktu yang kusembunyikan. Biar hilang saat pagi kutemui.

soju

Aku teguk tetes terakhir.
Akhirnya kutemukan titik ekuilibrium untuk hapus haus akan larik.

Seandainya semua habis di hari ketika aku tak lagi mengenali wajahnya.
Kemudian mengerti, aku baik-baik saja.

Rasa bersalah hilang makna. Aku akan benar membuktikan telah sungguh mencitaimu pada anak cucu kita.
Dengan setia.

Atau, hidup dalam penyesalan di kenyataan kau tak lagi bersamaku.

Rasa yang terakhir mungkin akan membunuhku atau setidaknya, membuatku merasa kecil seumur hidup.

Kita pernah begitu muda, dan sungguh mencinta.
Tapi langit tak lagi sama. Dan aku sangat ingin menamatkan buku baru yang kutemukan ini. Tentang sungai yang tenang dan asteroid yang  tak bosan menatapnya dari kejauhan.

Random Shortness of Life

The fall of mankind possibly drawn by their fear of how actually their life could end in a split second.

E=MC2

The drop of tangled teardrops hangs stiffly in the air.
Time does not exist in this space.

I steal a glance of you looking at me and kept it save.
As if the last quanta of yours would be taken.
Although I have come to understand now, then it would be my last too.

In an alternate universe, time took shape in a circle. We won't have to loot anything from time. Or trying so hard to make it still. Our fate will repeat itself.
We would become constant. None of our amount would be taken away from us.

But here now there still so many things I need to take care of. And you still need to figure your own.

All the unspoken prayer between us it has its own pit and by grace my beautiful river, you will see how each of them would be heard.

We're Nothing but a Chance

Twas a fortune to have met you.

Low.

When our hearts beats in different rhythm
And the days are not so kind
Breath slow. It always helps
Speak low when you speak love...*

And all the many insignificant things we did shall be erased.
I will be forgotten, along with all my ill qualities.
You will be remembered, my calm river.

And the curtain descends.
Our swift daylights our long nights.

So maybe time will heal us again
The air will blow softly and the rain will once more
fall gently.

*after Don Pedro "Much Ado About Nothing"-William Shakespeare

Pity

An act of being hurt when shown in front of someone who has been destructed,
is an embarrassment

How can I

At where I am now the weather has been warm. And the rain falls gently.

Will you wait for me to come home once again?

I know I've traveled too far. But I still hold a place for you here somewhere deep inside.